episode

i would like to congratulate myself for being human.

i opened my heart to love; it got broken, just as i expected.

i bled. i shed tears. i almost died (an exaggeration). but this, too, shall pass. i have been through worse.

can one really go after a friend's man?

losing

i received one of the worst news in my life last saturday morning.

m&m- my family at work for three years- is meeting its demise sometime in august. before it was made known to everyone, i had been thinking about how easy it would be to leave if they decided to just hand all of their business to competition. boy, was i wrong!

that saturday, i slept with a heavy heart, not really understanding why. i was expecting the bad news anyway, so what was the drama all about?

i woke up with a heavier heart. it had by the time sunk in. we lost something important to competition not worth competing against. while i was consoled by the assurance that we were the better performers, i was also chagrined at the prospect of everyone getting scattered everywhere. it was just heart-rending to think that the friendships i have found and which have made me do the things i did (and vice-versa) are going to be harder to keep. distance, whatever people say of it, definitely has a say to such issues.

and to make matters worse, there are the gregg and jake connections...